A heartbeat!! A picture!! A milestone!!
Seeing your tiny form on the monitor made me ache to hold you, to care for you. Lucas has poked his finger in my belly button and questioned with amazement “in dere?”. Yes, I explained, our baby is in there. Last night, he determined you will be a “bubber”. We will work at having him stay open to your being a sister too.
I feel a shift in my ability to visualize your future. I guess I had been hesitant to get carried away without assurance you were real. This morning when I saw you for the first time, you definitely became real for me. I can release my caution and embrace the excitement that’s been beating at the door.
I welcome you to my life, our family, my body …. Everything is precisely as it should be.
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