My Mya Cocoon

I take my job as Mom very seriously. In my extreme way, I have planned my life over the past few years to be completely about Lucas and Mya. With Mya, it was my clear mission to be healthy and focused through the pregnancy, the natural child birth and then through her first year. For her first year, it was my job to be her hands, her legs, her food source - in many ways, her everything.
Now that we have passed her first year, I feel a real shift in how we relate to one another. As she becomes more and more her own little being, I can step back and watch her flourish. She is doing so many things on her own now that her requirements of me have lessened dramatically. Yesterday, we went to story time at the library for the first time where she received stimulation and learning from someone other than me.
It's a bittersweet transition. It makes me ache a little to watch her grow and change so quickly. But, I am feeling excited about all the possibilities that her growing independence brings about. For the first time in almost two years, I am considering who am I now? what do I need now? where do I begin to bring back Catherine-focused activities and goals?
I have been in the cocoon with Mya as she has grown from a thought to a few cells in my body to this walking/talking beautiful girl. We are both emerging and it feels fantastic.